Celena’s Life story
When he died I was scared as if I had been stuck in a car that was stuck on a railroad tracks in the car all by myself. It felt like I was alright until a Loud horn started going off, The train was coming. I tried to unbuckle my seat belt but it felt as if It only had a key to unlock it I searched for that key for the longest time. But then I dealt with it I knew that I would find the key anytime soon. I knew that I would feel a shocking terrifying pain. My heart sank to the ground and My head lowered. When I seen the key under my seat just shining there as if telling me to hurry and leave while I still can. I snapped the seatbelt and rowled down the window. I put both of arms through then my head and made a lunge as the train was only five feet away. I thought I would be crushed by the train so I closed my eyes in terror. Then I look up to see the train passing With scratches and bruises all over. I knew that I was lucky just to have only scratches and bruises but what if I had left someone in there of losing them I might as well Have been crushed by the train. I knew this would scar me but thank goodness I was all alone. All alone. Having to fight dangers on my own. Having to fight a loss. This would scar me thinking somebody I loved would be in there. That’s how I feel.
Shortly after My aunt bee died My uncle bill died. Bill and I were so very close. We loved listening music with each other. We loved Dancing and pretending to be cowboys together. He helped me with my assignments. My mom called me and told me “I’m picking you up early, Okay?” I said “Okay?” When I climbed into the car. My mom sighed. And Quietly says as she drives away “They found bill” “Okay what does he want to hang out?” “No I mean they found him on the Couch. Not breathing. With bear licking his face.” “ what you mean he, He died?” I remember this day so vividly because I bursted out crying “Why he was my friend. God. L” That day was so vivid because I remember my heart sinking and Me not being able to get away from it. I knew it was the reality. He wasn’t going to be here. I felt stuck in the place that I was. No where to go. Just Here. I was already at rock bottom. There was no place to go but up. I used to sit in my room all day, Sitting there being lazy never leaving. Hating everyone in life. Becoming the way that I didnt like. Let my room get so messy to the point it hurt to walk on. Not go to school at all. Go straight into my room after school. I still thought and thought about all the stuff I did with him and All of a sudden I thought Bill wouldn’t want me to be like this. He wouldn’t want to be a lazy boring person. I realized that like I found a key to open up my real life. Thank god I did. The only person that I was actually close to Was the fact I might just lose her.
My life has changed a lot because he hasn’t been there. He was always there for me. I could visit him whenever. All I had left of him where some of his possessions. Anything that would remind me of him. I knew that in some way that he would keep from becoming something that I wasn’t he made me a lot of things. He helped me through hard times. It’s Hard to tell my storys because I feel like then need to be kept. Kept from everyone so My story wouldn’t ever leave me. I felt like a lot things went missing when people die in my life. When Bill died. I felt like I didn’t have much of a heart left. But now I do Thanks Bill your amazing(:
Love always
Celena Tipani
In dedication to bill Thank you for everything(:
