Advice #24

I really miss my brother he has been gone for about 8 months but it feels like forever. I'm trying to be happy and supportive of what he is doing since he is going to be gone for another 16 months but I need advice on a way to try to remember him without making me sad. He is my best friend the person that I tell everything too and its really hard to tell him stuff when hes away in LA and I'm not allowed to see him and I can email him one time a week. How do I get over missing him so much?



My dad was diagnosed with bipolar over a year ago. He has been extremely depressed for about 10 years so most of my life. At first he was really angry at us thinking everyone else is wrong and that he was perfect. With him thinking that way he refused to take any medication because he felt indestructible. That feeling is part of the illness and my family had to move out. Now he is realizing all the wrong things he did but is still not thinking clearly. He is extremely depressed and has thought of suicide. This feeling is also part of the illness. I feel like I don't want to be with him because seeing him down makes me feel guilty. Is it wrong of me to almost hate my dad for all the things hes done. I don't really hate my dad I just hate the illness that has taken over his mind and has made him someone else. How do I get over this fear of seeing him and maybe going to my old house and finding him dead. I need to move on with my life but I don't know how